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''This outline follows the Canongate hardcover edition (5 March 2015), ISBN 978-1-78211-508-3.''<ref name="OCLC905941575" /><ref name="Observer2015" />
🕳️ '''1 – Falling.''' On a September day in Ibiza, 24‑year‑old Matt Haig walked from a quiet villa toward a seaside cliff, counting out the steps he believed would end the pain. For three sleepless days prior, he had lain in a hot room while his girlfriend, Andrea, brought water and fruit, the window open to let in air. Outside, the scent of pine and salt hung in the heat, the Mediterranean glittered below, and the cliff edge sat fewer than twenty paces away—he even set himself the target of twenty‑one steps. The fear of death had not vanished, but the agony of staying alive felt heavier than that fear, and he hovered at the brink, summoning courage first to die and then, unexpectedly, to live. Thoughts of his parents, sister, and Andrea—the love that would be left behind—pulled him back, and the release brought him to retch from stress. The chapter traces the first hours of breakdown: a racing heart, a strange tingling at the back of the skull, panic’s suffocation, and the shock of discovering an illness others cannot see. It shows how depression can look invisible from the outside while feeling catastrophic within, widening the gap between appearance and reality. In brief fragments rather than a continuous narrative, the section maps the drop from functioning adult to someone who can barely stand, naming the terror without clinical jargon. The through‑line is how extreme distress narrows attention until life seems a cruel binary between ending it and enduring it; connection and the possibility of time passing begin to reopen that tunnel. From this narrow ledge, the book’s larger task—collecting small reasons to keep going—starts with the first, decisive refusal to step forward.
🛬 '''2 – Landing.'''
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